i feel sick..

i am in a country that is as jumpy as a bunch of fleas that got shaken by a gust of wind.

and that wiff swept us up like crazy.. all of a sudden everyone is toking..and the worst is when i go around forums and see some

bastards putting down their email and say that they are curious.. wat do they mean curious??? could you guys bear a little bit of

sympathy for this girl who has had her phone stolen or fomr some sourcce slipped and got into the wrong hands and later got

her video spread ... in other words have a heart.. for those who have seen it..please jjust thrash it and move on.. dun spread it..

for those who haven seen it and are "curious" please try to restrain and hold back your curiosity..

she is just a seventeen year old who has gotten into a bit of bad luck and who happen to have a tinge of eroticism and was able

to express it explicitly..

on her end she should have backed it up and kept it away.. but even then.. it doesn't warrant us the right to ooogle at it..



to the girl in this incident..whoever you are.. i do hope that this will blowover and may things hush up for you..


till then i hope pple who hold the videos.. please delete it.. for goodness sakes..





yet again.. lets show a little grace ...



till i blog again.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

finally after so long.. i have finally gotten into the spirit of studying..not..
well did some revision but almost falling asleep in TCC was not i expected from revision. the environment was pleasant.. cool and calm and dry amidst the rain.

today was a day or solidarity..a day of strolls of no time.. no pace.. everything is snail paced..relaxed..but some wat empty... at times liek these.. thots drift to and fro my head...but i guess it felt kinda poetic..cos i was strolling down infront of park mall looking at the tree tops and the silhouettes cast by the many leafs..

anyways.. spent my afternoon reading up my b path in TCC and i nearly fell asleep when i was rescued by a geisha.. call chiyo..hha.. but that also meant i spent 2 glorious hours reading a story book instead of pathology.. wat a day..

for those who feel i am just lazing around.. well i am..and proud of it actaully cos not many pple could do it.. like laze around.. lounge and read a book and watch time pass.. as in truely relaxed.. no worries about time and any other shit.. its liek a vacation..


finally in the mood to pickup a book and read on..its been sooo long...i think i should go for collagen.. those "kissable" lips suit me ya...hehe

gosh i am such a guy..

the title.. just in case you are wondering.. but some times.. guys sound synonymous to ass..

haha

well sometimes.. not all the times anyways..

today or yesterday.. was st.valentines..

had a nice afternoon crapping with michelle.. but then after it was home and snooze.. the whole valentines thing was less then i had expected.. well they are some ppel who were dateless.. some pple who are dated.. some pple who dated other pple.. some pple got dated.. some pple got no date so hung out with friends.. some pple pining to be dated.. some pple pining that the one they ask out on a date would agree.. so much going.. apart fomr the chocalates and flowers.. which actually get more expensive on that day..( thats ok cos its festive.. haha) it seems st valentines idea of love is kinda wry in these where lovers convey ideas of all eternity with the ease of a matter of seconds...

well one thing that knock into my thick skull yesterday was this friend of mine..she is a lovely lady.. most men would class her as gorgeous.. some pple would see her and faint..haha.. well its jjust an exaggeration..but it could very well be true.. well .. she was facing a problem most guys faced..

think this.. if you like this gal.. and you hinted at her a dozen times but she doesn't seem to respond.. wat do you do?? most guys will wilt away.. and wish her all the best followed by a sappy "i am useless" speech maybe..(not that she did one) well she liked this guy.. the sort of "from afar i looked, from afar i blushed" kinda matter.. well she tried take initiative..but he didn't take(wat a thick skull..and how rare.. a gal making the first move..).. or thats about how much i got from it.. ...sounds familiar..?? ( to the guys esp) well most pple would think a girl like her would be able to flick a man's switch like she plays pinball.. but it was surprising..lucky guy...



till i blog again..

anyways.. i wish her luck.. and may her man of her dreams respond..

my wishlist

today is suppose to be a study day.. but i was hesitant.. as always... and am kinda distracted by all the see here.. look there..eat hear.. smell there..couples walking here and there...love is blooming in the air..some damn cat gave me a scare..notes in front i wish to tear..i wish that i shouldn't have to care..now i'm sighing in despair..breathing in this lovesick air..oh boy life just so isn't fair..i wish i could put it with more flair..but sorry i've non to spare..





after all that stuff and fluff up there.. i have decided to tok wat i am toking..

wat am i toking??

hehe

well imagine

a honda civic hybrid in black (evironmentally, family-ly friendly)

a nice penthouse with a nice view (if i have the blooooody money)

a date with intellect..great hair..nice voice.. good brains..(see below) loves me (this is the hard part)..

a sundancer 44 (for the sea part)

a morning in paris looking at the sunrise sipping champagnes at the top of the empire state with my love one by my side (the gal part)

days out in the sea with the breeze in my face (thats wat the sundancer is for)

a nice job that i could do from home O.T.O.T.(own time own target)

a wife that looks like melissa theriau..(this is the most absurd one here i guess)

..

happy St. Valentines..(sigh....with a big ass)..

mememe

my, when you're in love, you're a Steady Mate. Approximately 14% of people share this type with you. What does this title say about you? Read on to find out.




You're the kind of romantic partner that others will want to lean on in times of distress. This is true because your logical mind allows you to remain cool-headed during a crisis. This quality can make you seem a bit heroic at times. And for that reason, people who value your calm, rational nature will make a great match for you and steady mates like you.

You need someone who won't expect you to be overly softhearted or to express your feelings all the time. They should know that just because you don't always express the emotions you're having, it doesn't mean that you don't care. On the contrary, you're someone who will always value the quality of the connections between you and the people you care about. Because of this fact, it will be important for you to find a romantic partner who knows how to care about a relationship and put some effort into it. Once you find a person like that, the two of you can live life to the fullest.

Now that you have general sketch of your love personality, you should understand the 7 core personality dimensions that determined it.


Dimension #1: Emotional versus Rational
Those who scored high on the rational scale are people who can usually take a step back during a heated situation in order to think out how best to respond. When provoked, their level-headedness makes them more likely to step back from an argument rather than fan the flames. Rational types are also typically strong thinkers who enjoy working through challenging problems to find a solution.

Those who scored more highly on the emotional scale tend to respond to intense situations by expressing their feelings as they have them. In this way, emotional people can sometimes come across as being either intense or impulsive. On the positive side, people who are highly emotional tend to be more direct than their rational counterparts and can be good about confronting issues in order to clear the air.

Compared with others, your results indicate that you're more rational than many people who took the test. This means that you're someone who is quite capable when it comes to logical reasoning. In fact, it's likely that you apply this valuable ability in a variety of situations, both personal and professional. Being rational and even-tempered can indeed serve you well, particularly during long-term relationships; almost no couple experiences constant bliss. At times when the road gets rocky, your deliberate way of processing difficult emotions can help you and your partner create more focus and direction in your relationship. It will also keep shouting matches to a minimum.

Being high on the rational scale means that you have a talent for observing what's happening in your own life. By being witness to events and your reactions to them, you can make more conscious choices for yourself. Not everyone has this ability. On the contrary, many people let their emotions pull them off-center and miss great opportunities. So be happy you have a good head on your shoulders. Being the voice of reason can be an attractive quality. It can also make you more compatible with the many people who'll come into your life.


Dimension #2: Pampered versus Rugged
Those who scored as more rugged are outdoorsy types who generally enjoy being out in nature. They're also individuals who are willing to take risks and get a little dirty in order to have some fun. For highly rugged people, the world is their playground as well as their sanctuary.

Individuals who are more pampered include people who appreciate the many creature comforts associated with civilization. Pampered types typically prefer that their recreation be of the indoor variety.

Your results show that compared to other people who took the test, you fall on the more rugged side of the line. This suggests that you aren't afraid to get down and dirty when the time is right. You appear to be comfortable in natural settings and don't seem to mind the unpredictable quality inherent in outdoor activities. In fact, you likely appreciate being out in nature because of the many surprises it offers. This comfort with your surroundings likely carries over to other aspects of your life as well. If so, the result is a confidence that can be very calming to others. In love, it will be important to find a partner who also has a passion for nature. If not on the same level as you, at least enough so you can share the kinds of experiences that you value.


Dimension #3: Down-to-earth versus Dreamy
Individuals high on the dreamy scale include those people who would choose the bubbles of champagne over a glass of wine simply because it seemed a more romantic gesture. Highly dreamy people tend to see the magic in life. They may also actively seek out ways to make their love relationships special so that each day becomes an occasion.

People who are more down-to earth prefer life's everyday moments to grand gestures that seem over-the-top. They are realists who aren't easily swayed by styling or symbolism. For the most part, down-to-earth people would rather avoid glossy exteriors to get closer to what's on the inside. This tendency typically holds true across the board — in their friendships, in professional life, and in love.

Compared with others, your score weighed more heavily on the dreamy end of the scale. This result indicates that you have a more idealized way of seeing life than many people do. At times, your talent for imbuing the things around you with fantasy and romance gives you an air of elegance and wonder that others can be drawn to. In love, you know how to lavish special attention on the object of your affection and appreciate others who can reciprocate. Typically, romantic gestures aren't lost on you. On the contrary, you're usually one of those people who can really appreciate the magic of a well-timed kiss or a moonlight stroll. Dreamy types like you can be experts when it comes to courting. Just make sure that once you've found that special relationship you don't fall into the trap of thinking it's going to be just like it is in the movies. Once the two of you have walked off into the sunset, making your love last will still take some work. However, with your talent for keeping romance in bloom, you appear to be the perfect person for the job.


Dimension #4: Modern versus Traditional
People who are more traditional tend to carry those feelings over into their search for love. For example, traditional types tend to believe that when a man and a woman go on a date, the man should pay. They're also likely to feel that red roses are the perfect gift for a first date and that idealistic weddings are the only way to go. For someone who is traditional, tried-and-true rituals are important to uphold.

People who are more modern are likely to hold a contrary opinion. For one, they'll often feel that people on a date should split the bill. They may also think that a Vegas wedding is just as good as a church service. It all depends on the people involved and what feels special to them. In addition, modern types tend to believe in equality in relationships and seek true respect from their significant others.

Your score on the Love Test shows that you're more traditional than many other people who took it. This means that in love, you're more inclined to follow time-tested dating patterns, especially at the beginning of a relationship. You may even come from a long line of daters who've taught you the many "rules" of courtship — both explicit and implicit. These kinds of dating traditions dictate what a man is supposed to do in a relationship and what a woman is supposed to do. Sometimes, even same-sex couples will uphold these traditional roles, one taking on the male role and one taking on the female role, without losing their gender identity. The point is that these roles have become ingrained in our culture over the years and, to some degree, appear to have become ingrained in you as well. As a result, you tend to be one who'll look to the ways of the past to help you best create your future love.


Dimension #5: Easygoing versus Particular
Highly particular people tend to strive for perfection in whatever they do. They also tend to have refined, and at times expensive, tastes. Appearance can be important to particular types, so taking care of themselves is often a high priority.

Easygoing people, on the other hand, don't tend to place a lot of importance on appearances. "Keeping up with the Joneses," whether in beauty, fashion, or possessions, isn't typically a top priority for easygoing types. They tend to be more impressed by things that have little to do with life's trappings.

In your case, you scored on the more particular end of the continuum compared with others who took the test. This indicates that you're one of those people who knows what you like. As a result, you're likely to have more discerning tastes than many people around you do. When you see something you want — whether it's a new car, a new coat, or even a new love — it can be hard to accept second best. You'd usually rather keep striving. That's what makes you particular. Because you like to be your best, you typically like to look your best too. In fact, you've probably received more than your share of compliments you on your put-together looks or great outfits. Being particular means you're apt to be more talented than most people are when it comes to self-care, style, and grooming. In this way, people like you tend to make a great first impression.


Dimension #6: Independent versus Connected
People who are highly connected tend to make their relationships with others a priority. They keep in close touch with family and friends when they can and are usually softhearted, empathic people.

Highly independent people tend to be less open with those around them than their connected counterparts. They typically enjoy having time to themselves. Independent types are apt to search for meaning in ideas, things, or particular experiences more often than in their relationships. As a result, they can be at their best whether they're in a relationship or flying solo.

Compared with the other people who took this test, your score weighed more heavily on the realistic end of the scale. This means that although you surely appreciate the presence of others in your life, you're often your own best companion. In fact, there are certain things that you probably prefer to do alone, even if you don't have to. Whether you enjoy taking yourself to a movie now and then or simply for a quiet drive, you seem to be one of those people who understand that quality time doesn't always have to mean social time. So while you likely appreciate the chance to socialize with friends and family, you're apt to covet your down time as well.

When it comes to relationships, you're not usually one to dive right in with your heart on your sleeve. Instead, you're more likely to hold back a bit and open up to the new romance more slowly. This kind of distance may simply feel safer. However, once you let yourself fall deeply in love, you can develop as close and real a bond as anyone out there.


Dimension #7: Humble versus Self-possessed
People who score highly on being self-possessed are generally confident types who believe strongly in their abilities. This feeling may translate into a sense of pride in their level of physical fitness, a sense of assurance about their intellectual abilities, or a high regard for their sexual prowess. Highly self-possessed people often have a charisma and energy that makes them the center of attention.

Individuals who score more highly on the humble end of the scale are typically grounded people who would usually prefer to go unnoticed rather than make a big fuss. So instead of trumpeting their achievements to others, humble types will often opt to celebrate their successes in private. People who are highly humble also tend to be humanists who see others as equals, rather than feeling superior to anyone.

Compared with others, you scored on the more grounded end of the continuum. This means that you're not likely to go around boasting to others about your abilities or worth. Your humility is the stronger virtue. You can possess a kind of quiet strength that doesn't need to be voiced. It simply is. You're one of those people that others probably describe as "the salt of the Earth," because you're likely to appreciate and recognize others rather than put yourself first. This humble quality that you embody can actually help you when you need to make tough decisions. Unencumbered by arrogance, you're likely to see a situation for what it is and make choices accordingly, rather than being impulsive or unduly confident.

In love, being humble can sometimes make you seem more genuine to others, because it's obvious that you're not all about self-aggrandizement and flash. You're just yourself. While this quiet nature of yours is an admirable thing, remember that it's okay to toot your own horn once and a while. Feeling good about yourself isn't the same thing as feeling superior to others. For people like you, the trick is to be humble while still truly loving yourself for who you are.


When it's all said and done, much of compatibility comes down to that X factor known as chemistry. However, by knowing the love personality types that are the closest fit with your own, you're much more likely to know a good thing when you see it. Also, understanding your compatible types can give you new insight to why certain people you meet just don't seem to match up. Realize that most relationship problems can be fixed — so you're far from doomed if your types aren't a perfect match. Instead, think of the information as a mechanism to learn more about yourself and your romantic life.

Although the old adage tells us that "opposites attract," generally, research indicates otherwise. In fact, studies show that opposites don't attract; similar people do. So the type that you're apt to be most compatible with is actually your own: the Steady Mate. There are, of course, exceptions to this rule. However the dimensions measured in this test focus on attitudes and behaviors that, when matched between two people, increase probability of having a compatible relationship.

When looking for a match, the type that is the next most compatible to your own is Essential Companion.

If you're looking for a genuine, down-to-earth partner who knows how to treat others with kindness, you'd best look in the direction of an essential companion. They not only respect and value the people in their lives but also make their relationships a top priority. However, they're usually not the type to try to impress others with fancy romantic gestures. Nor are they apt to spend time worrying about their appearance in a superficial manner. If that special someone is willing to take them as they are, they will happily do the same in return. Otherwise, they'll probably keep on walking.

They're probably interested in finding a partner who will be equally committed to things like quality time and genuine communication. That way, they can focus on one another without all the bells and whistles that some people consider an essential part of a good relationship. When they find an individual who feels the way they do about these things, the relationship will be a truly special one.

You should also look for an Idealistic Romantic when scouting out romance; that's the second most compatible type to your own.

"Happily ever after," may be the three words that idealistic romantics enjoy dreaming about, — next to "I love you," of course. They likely have their share of idealistic dreams for the future, especially when it comes to imaging their perfect partner. They are socially skilled and know how to make the people close to them feel special. As a result, they're apt to have their eyes out for someone who can do the same.

The rituals of romance are important to them, so someone who doesn't appreciate the value of things like red roses and candlelight dinners probably won't hold their interest for very long. However, they're not just looking for a thoughtful date. They seek a deeper emotional bond. Once they find that special love, they'll probably be the first to declare that they're head-over-heels rather than hold back their emotions. After all, what good is being in love if you can't share it?

So now that you know the love personality types you're most compatible with, what about the ones that you're least similar to? Here's some information about the type that is your opposite.

Who isn't a good match for you?
The type opposite to yours is Independent Spirit. If independent spirits had a theme song, it would probably be "Don't Box Me In." Independent spirits typically aren't fond of being crowded. On the contrary, they appreciate having the space to do their own thing and don't often feel swayed by what others are up to. They're not the type who typically feels the need to hang out at the "cool" clubs or sample the latest restaurants. In fact, they may not even know the latest buzz about those things, since those things really aren't important to them.

They probably prefer to come up with their own ideas of places to go and people to spend time with. Others are naturally drawn to their sense of creativity and the mystery that surrounds their lives. Sometimes, independent spirits will treasure the company of others, but only if those people aren't super-dependent types who want to be with them all the time. Finding a like-minded spirit, someone who prizes their independence as much as they do, will probably bring them and their mate the most happiness.

Now you have your guide to helping you spot a good mate. But once you find a relationship, you want to be able to hang onto it. That's where understanding your personality really comes into play. Read on for advice to keep your love going strong.

Love can turn your world a little upside down, so it's not so surprising that being in a relationship may sometimes result in changes to your personality. Even psychologists agree that love can alter people's behavior and influence which personality attribute you display.

Part of the reason love can bring about this kind of transformation is that in a romantic relationship, people tend to let down their guard. It's the disarming aspect of close relationships that gets us to be our real selves — a complex mixture of the best and the worst that we each can be.

As a result, in love, certain aspects of personality usually hidden from view can come forth in ways that aren't always very positive. During stressful periods in a relationship, or even in good times, you may find yourself reverting to old negative patterns of behavior or expressing your least favorable traits. Dynamics from your childhood or experiences with past lovers can all come to the surface, so that suddenly you're dealing with a lot more than just what's in front of you.

The best way to combat this tendency is to take a step back whenever you feel yourself beginning to act out old emotions or behaving in a way that could be harmful to your relationship. By grounding yourself and making sure you are truly present, you can gain perspective on your situation. Ask yourself what you're thinking and feeling to see if it's an accurate reflection of what's happening in that moment. If you find yourself overreacting or reacting based on the past, you can make changes to behave in the way that feels best to you and most truly represents your best self.

Realize that attraction, an integral element of romantic love, can make your body react in physical ways to your thoughts and surroundings. In this way, attraction can have the effect of a stimulant or generate the same physical sensations that in other environments would be considered excitement, fear, or stress. When in a heightened state like that, it's much easier to act in ways that you later can reflect on and wonder, "What was I thinking?" So take heed of attraction's power.

In addition to these factors, given your love personality type, there are certain issues that are more likely to come up for you when you're in a romantic relationship.

For steady mates, it's your highly rational nature. Most times in life, having a logical, analytical mind is a tremendous asset. However, in a relationship, this focus can sometimes create a divide between you and your partner. That's not to suggest that you should forego your rational tendencies or be someone that you're not. It simply suggests that you may want to make room for the emotional aspect of issues as well. For example, if during an argument you're seeing only the logical parts of a problem and your mate is focused only on how it made them feel, the two of you aren't likely to communicate very well.

In situations like this one, you would usually fare better simply by listening to your mate and encouraging them to fully express their emotions. This way they can really feel heard by you. Many times all it takes in a tough situation is listening to your partner so they feel listened to and validated. Your rational perspective can be put to use during other parts of the conversation. Once the emotions surrounding an issue have been expressed, then is the time to problem solve — and that's your specialty.


those who are imsomniacs should have slept by now

i see

the world beneath my feet,
above cloud, wind and rain.
from up above i stood and seen,
above fallen, lost and slain.

through clouds and mist my eyes waded,
a gust and soon its all faded,
as gentle as the breeze.

-bliss











by, myloh.

lalalala

men has an insatiable longing to replicate them selves in most things we do.. as evident as it can be seen in robotics..as robots become more human.. would it not be possible that there may one day posess the ability to mainifest??


issit just plainly foor mens sense or achievement or his longing for control.. that he has to manufacture his own pawns to be able to have undoubted mastery over these "toolS"..

perhaps its just men and their god complex at work.

distractions

this post is one that displays absolutely, the possibilities of wat a really bored person could do...

was looking through my visitor count and a certain blog address hit me.. www.sophistication-.blogspot.com

quite bizarre.. or just my ignorance.. cos its not just sophistication.. but it has a "-" after it.. not really sure who was it.. got a

hunch its a girl..

or maybe just a guy with a liking for intimate details..or worse.. just a typo error.. haha.



An emotion we speak lightly of..

not many must have seen,

the line which seemed the edge of a sword

seems suddenly so thin.

one may see it a foolish craze,

while others in its power stare; amazed.

a glance its all it takes some say,

yet many take years searching in dismay.

to many blissful couples found,

i wish thee happiness safe and sound.

alikened schooners down a silky stream,

may true love from dear cupid be more than just a dream.

-happy St.Valentines

Myloh(aka Brethren Coulter)


the above is an original composition..please do drop me a message or tag on the tagboard if you wish to reproduce it else where.. thank you..

new one.

another day has past.. time to lay things down andd start afresh.. so far so good..

once in a while you would drift in.. and then as if in cross dissolve you shifted away just as stealthily.

an unbelievable chapter has ended .. hoping for the next one...

hope that the next chapter would still have more of you and alot more of others to come in...

this chapter will be held out with a bookmark and lots of pictures, memories and nights under the moonlight... with ghastly

laughter that ring deep into the night awakening every men and beast..haha..

times spent were unforgettably..just alittle bittersweet in the end..


i am happy to have met you andd known you..

may the road to your bliss be less tumultous than mine..

blah blah

HELENA
my chemical romance

Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are...
So far from you

Burning on, just like the match you strike to incinerate
The lives
Of everyone you know
And what's the worst to take? (worst to take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Came a time
When every star falls
Brought you to tears again
We are
The very hurt you sold
And what's the worst to take? (worst to take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Can you hear me...
Are you near me?
Can we pretend
To leave and then...
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide!

[chorus]
What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight ...

wat the hell

i guess cupids arrow never did work for me..

or rather when his arrow hadth befallen upon a field of flowers turing them red with

love i have some how gotten into that mess..

just like the flowers in folly .. i have fallen into a ravine so deep that now i find

myself clawing out of it..

indeed lifes a bitch.. but its a love hate thing really..

for the longest time.. i was how you say "crushin" on this gal..

and for the longest time.. i hot crush and go.. the sort where you see this pretty

gal but later you just go nah.. not goign to happen and walk away..?

well this gal.. got buried in my head (to know wat she is like , read the previous post.. damn close)...i guess its just me. i am no the regular guy

all macho and everthing... sad..maybe...

well i tend to put myself into this situation and i guess thats way too much doodoo for me to dig myself out of.. somehow i felt stupid..a little one sided ...gosh this is embarrassing..

well...kinda like a demagnetised magnet.. looking for that north pole.



sorry for being mushed up..hope things will change for the better..