blows the dust off and put the sheets off..

I'm back and anew.. well almost..

i seem to be dragging so much of me behind..

i wish i have a clean slate to begin on.

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It kinda was three years ago.. well soon to be... i thot it ended.. it did not..

she's still waiting.. all this time.. i thot time as always served to wash and wear off the effects of that fateful acquaintance.

Ok.. btw.. i AM watching "serendipity" if you dunnow wat that is.. i guess you prob won't get the rest of this.

All this while.. in her absence.. i missed... i missed... ... i missed her...

Everyday i reminisce... drives me while and gives me the energy which i ride out.. day after day..

and then the day came when i decided that the lack of communication and the holding on to this mirage is going to ultimately do me in.. hence i sent a mail out to her ... ...

i decided that it'd brilliant to move on...

did not work out.. couple months down... she messaged me...

"I missed you" three words that blew my mind like a freaking mind grenade....

until recently .. she says she's been waiting for me... and the fact that i'm affected is saying plenty about how much i miss her too.

yet i know its not possible...




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when i thot all was over .. i decided to move on....

then i got to know this beauteous.. the one person that seems to be on the same track as me..

similar thots.. sophisticated..cute.. smart.. bakes well..

imaginative...sweet.. she's got the cutest voice.. artsy...

all in all i want her..


and just about 3 days ago.. a message came..

now my mind is a ball of gunk...


save me..