blows the dust off and put the sheets off..

I'm back and anew.. well almost..

i seem to be dragging so much of me behind..

i wish i have a clean slate to begin on.

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It kinda was three years ago.. well soon to be... i thot it ended.. it did not..

she's still waiting.. all this time.. i thot time as always served to wash and wear off the effects of that fateful acquaintance.

Ok.. btw.. i AM watching "serendipity" if you dunnow wat that is.. i guess you prob won't get the rest of this.

All this while.. in her absence.. i missed... i missed... ... i missed her...

Everyday i reminisce... drives me while and gives me the energy which i ride out.. day after day..

and then the day came when i decided that the lack of communication and the holding on to this mirage is going to ultimately do me in.. hence i sent a mail out to her ... ...

i decided that it'd brilliant to move on...

did not work out.. couple months down... she messaged me...

"I missed you" three words that blew my mind like a freaking mind grenade....

until recently .. she says she's been waiting for me... and the fact that i'm affected is saying plenty about how much i miss her too.

yet i know its not possible...




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when i thot all was over .. i decided to move on....

then i got to know this beauteous.. the one person that seems to be on the same track as me..

similar thots.. sophisticated..cute.. smart.. bakes well..

imaginative...sweet.. she's got the cutest voice.. artsy...

all in all i want her..


and just about 3 days ago.. a message came..

now my mind is a ball of gunk...


save me..

this is the closest thing to crazy that i've ever known

to go really crazy would be unthinkable. a state i know could be attained if i hadn't control. so restrain i must till you return. the craze shall pass and in all loveliness for your beauty and charm i'll yearn..

yearn

misplaced...mishapened...in darkness I harkened...I chased the promise of your glow.. and a wisp of light, i boldly follow... the sinewy trails fall lay by fate... so fragile and frail it lay in wait... for the day shall come when you've returned... that i shall more than ever.. for you i yearn..

HZ

i miss her lips already.. and its only for that transient moment.. capture in frames.. as years of wanting surge through us.. and motioned my fingers through her silky tresses.. my vision blurred.. my senses heightened.. hands trace down her back.. a heck to the world around.. devoid of any sound..for i think for once that wat i wanted to find was found...

paper and charcoal..

i wish there was someone who would teach me how to draw.. there is a picture i wish to translate in coal.. as photographs jsut seems too harsh.. - i used to think that photography is a hand that i never had..having never been able to will a pencil in my claw of hand... i searched for the tool and thot i found.. today i found it empty.. i wish to lay down some lines...and trace the very silhouette my mind has etched

something that made me come back and blog about.

was suppose to meet alicia for dinner today at holland village.. and i arrived a tad earlier.. so i sat in at starbucks sipping on coffee and munching quiche..

well holland v being wat it is..is filled to the brim with university students hence not exactly short on feminine beauty.. well it wasn;t exactly wat i had in mind.. but it was a nice place to pple watch..

came across especially this gal.. who has had a tattoo done.. and it was quite well done if i might say so..

upon her back was written in typewriter font or something to that effect.and wat was scribed was "ëverything is illuminated" it kinda hit me like a dear friend of mine who uses "edify" in her email add.. either case its pretty much a smack in the face.. a moments enlightenment.. an awakening.. and an utter delight..

well having been a fan of good skin body art.. it was just jaw droppingly good..its just a pity i haven my camera to take a picture to show it to you guys..

the thing is its so sublimely brilliant..just a straight line across.. no cursive.. no twirls.. just the simple old font.. this is its being put alittle off centered.. with the "is" in the sentence nestling just on the ridge which is the vertebrae..

combine that with the lbd number that the girl was wearing. with those slender shoulder straps framing her flawless back with that teaser of a tattoo...

if possible i'd love to have her pose in the soft genteel lights of the setting sun.. an image to remember...

since 16th nov 2008

oh my.. oh my .. oh my .. oh my..

i am in such shite man..

i have fallen and then i have ousted myself from it again.

i am glad that i am able to meet alot of gorgeous women in my life i truly am.

i am really really really grateful

cos my eyes gets so much exercise.

but i am still single..

i begin to wonder if there is something wrong with me.

i shall try to list it out..
on second thot.. its too many..

holy cow..

they are pple i chat up.. make friends.. laugh.. make jokes.. shop..

they was one whose character was so lovable.. for awhile i was swooned..

then there are a FEW who have the sweetest smiles...

one who has amazing taste.. or can somehow make the most ordinary clothing look like PHWOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one who has the softest skin...

one who was amazingly sexy...

one who is unobviously sexy .. to her its oblivion.. to me its like a vinyl sticker all over me..

a few whom have lips i wanna kiss when there speak...

one who is fantastic in no matter wat hairstyle..

one who only has one hairstyle..

one who has had the same kind of hair.. but hell of alot of style..
the kind that should appear on those women with power ads.

one who doesn't really speak english.. but she knows i love you.. and she says it so much..

one whom i bumped into out of no where and she was cute fab sexy well spoken tall sweet nice smile but ..... married...

so after all this.. and its only in the passed week or so.. i think i shall devote my soul to singlehood.. cos honestly.. i am baffled..

i still know that i have these really beautiful gorgeous fantastic magnificent amazing incredible outrageous and blah blah friends..

but i guess its easier as friends i guess..

or maybe i just tumble too easily into the friend zone..

hmmmm