arghh

i dunnoe.. but i think my body is not goign to take it too well..

maybe will break in acouple of days.. acouple of loose screws.. wrecked joints..

who knows..

well look at it this way.. my week has been slammed.. think like everyday drying..so soon.. i should be able to snap and appear in a biscuit advertisement..

well.. its misery alot of times. OUCH... big time.. 시진 i haven't been toking to her.. sadly so.. cos she is busy.. and i am busy.. and i am stoned.. feeling dreadfully guilty.. it was soddingly horrid..

well just hope that we could have more time for gel-ing. Guess the hunch i had would soon materialize..sadly..

well being the turnip i am.. i think i am at least grateful that my life ain all empty.. but sometimes.. i really wish my life was a little more involved..
more like.. its full.. i am always doing something... but its just the meaning.. where am i heading... wat meant wat and who is to who to me.. etc...


well.. before this piece it becomes a suicide note.. lets lighten up..

lets see sculling for one.. massively difficult.. the coordination etc..

the balancing the scull.. massive stuff..

and then.. lets see.. its basically the same old same old from there..
think wake at 4 am work till 5 30 get home reach home at 7 ish 8.. and then..its dinner.. rest.. net.. some tv.. and snooze.. and it repeats it self..


if only i could lead a care free 24 hours.. siting on the deck of an itama 55 .. with two riedel flutes of old-time bollingers...and seating with love one in my arms. as we look out into the horizon.. into the faraway sun.. as it veils inself below the ocean blue..

then... we'll head to shore.. raise a small fire... have a small roast.. then we'll stay by the "hearth" for warmth.. as we lie back and look into the night sky.. hunting for stars...

and then the rest.. maybe pple who come across my blog can add to it.. hahha.. nights..