crushed.. ep :1

those who have read my blog.. would know i am infatuous..

about everything really.. from the calla lilies to one point

the renault avantime..

and most of the time my crushes aren't regretted.. thank god..



well this post is going to be about one of the frst few of my life..

so to speak anyways...

fomr the peugeot to a citroen..

to a girl i saw on television..

this would be quite literary speaking.. my first crush on a girl..

in real life..

embarrassingly enuff it occured in kindergarten.. at 5...

i've to say.. i think ihave good taste.. haha.. nah.. just kidding..

well it was the age of when i have not even know how to spell "love"

and i would write this girl notes of how i "heart" her...


"heart" of course was drawn with great attention to detail (ya .. like real..)

well notes like this must have shocked the poor girl to death..

think stalker .. haha..

come to think of it.. it is mighty scary... haha

well...


--------------------14 year later------------------------


here i am heading out to meet my friend whom i knew from attachment..

adn she said she was going to bring her boyfriend along..i was like.. ok..

and she said her boyfreinds sister was coming too..

i was thinking. knowing new pple ain that bad..

and then terror struck..


i saw my friend's boyfriend's sister and to my shock and horror..

she was the very same i had a crush on..

and well i was all awkward that evening.. and dinner was a hard swallow from choking..

haha..

well she turned out to be a very fine lady. thank god..

and one more think..

she mentioned that when i was in kindergarden i did a "hit and run"


which i had no recollection of.. apparently.. but.. if i did that.. gosh..

my first kiss ( "hit and run" refers to giving someone a thimble and running off)... oh....haa..

well.. i never born any tinge of such thing happening and i'll cross my heart

and hope to die..



its kinda funny thinking back.. i was an idiot.. still am one... maybe a bigger one still..

but those were the times when the feelings were direct.. and with no hesitation..

candid and true i guess...

not that i should mean much..but thinking of it.. makes the corner of my lips just

curl up that wee little bit..