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kinda stressed but dunno wat to wirte so...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

boring...

just blogged and blogger had to not keep it.. just "brilliant".. hahah

well not sure wat to type again.. lost my inspiration..hehe... well i guess

love??

something from my mail... give it a try.. kinda fun..hehe

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

today

the beginning,

since posting pictures is a little next to impossible .. i have decided to do without them for the time being..

a beautiful thursday.. wat a dreadful thing to say..

it seems an awful thing to say but i dread thursdays

cos its been for 19 yrs sort bad in a way..



well today isn't the worst thurday yet.. but thursdays aren't my best days..lets put it this way


today was ok when i woke up late and got to school late..started studying a little late..and ended a little late too.

it was not all that bad infact today was a little too peaceful as compared to my other thursdays..
kinda freak me out.. haha..

then in the midst of revision shelly called for a meet up.. and i thot it would be ok since i was about tdone and she was about to start work..

so we met up in city hall... where it rained..and strage it seems but it always seem to rain when i meet up with shells.

well we met up and i was kinda hungry so we decided to find a joint to makan..so we walked fomr raffles place to millenia walk to suntec to marina.. where i saw the holy grail of burgers...almost..CARL"S JR

today

this is only one third of the story to continue read the blog after this,


well looking at the ads i was very tempted to try but i never really got around the area to try it.. and today i finally sank my mouth into the soft buns (buns???hehe)and later into the juicy bacon through the sticky and fragratn cheese slices as i progressed deeper and sank my teeth into the juicy tender succulent patties of the cheeseburger..hmmmmmm

well it was like a whopper but heavier.. much heavier..and with juicy bacon to match.. note.. its juicy not biscuit dry like in burger king..it was a sure winner.. but i was a bit amazing when it arrived.. i was thinking something alot bigger infact.. so it sorta gotten me down abit from the out side.. but like i described earlier.. it was genuinely sinful... pple on diet dun even think about it..and i was with shell who said she only had the single burger and she couldn't finish but i finished a doubell so it laid her there kind of shock. hehe.. and i was kinda not stuffed and iguess trying to be funny and i was hoping to have another go and the cheese double.. and that shocked shelly even more..heheh

today

continued from the above

well in the end i had only one cheese double in my tummy and the fries with salsa... yummy..and loads of water.. cos it was free flow.. so i refilled only once but i ran to the loo twice..

then after we finished eating shelly headed to the airy section for a smoke as we waited for her hubs to appear..then we toked.. as we have always been... and i am not sure if i have ever maentioned this but shelly is one person whom i could tok with and about literally anything under the sun it was like when i ran out she would continue..and when she ran out i would something to say.. it was and still is amazing..cos she is actually quite abit my elder but we could tok till the pigs come home..

then it was shell's hubs appearance.. he spotted longer hair and was still a beef cake..but kinda wat you would call a gentle giant..heheheh..its like shelly would be all sisterly and same age with me but when she is with her hubbs she is like this other person.. hahah.. then we headed inside for shelly's shopping cos she got a job and needed some clothes that looked officy...hmm.. hehhe

finally days over and here i am typing..all the best..

till i blog again

today..after a few dasy of not bloggin i could not hold back any longer and i just have to.... have to... blog on.. hhaha
well.. today was a quite day of studying like i did a few days ago.. and i was in olio having a small cuppa and doing my revision esp in the morning it was all quiet with only a few patron and soft music playing as i sipped my affogatto breathe the air and read on.... after a while i headed to taka for my lunch and headed off to the next spot for my studying.. hehe
in orchard they is hardly a quiet spot.. if you know of one let me know!! well i found one.. but more would be better.. hehe.. i was in tcc..(for the uninitiated its stands for the coffee conneiseur not coffee club..) in cathay cine.. and i was peasantly surpised to be the only patron in the joint.. bliss.. hahaha..had my regular order of a oreo mocha frappe and sat down to read on..not long after ordering .. my frappe came.. and as i would do normally i asked for syrup..(is this out of the ordinary??) well the waitress popped the question when she came with my syrup..
she went: " you pour the syrup into the frappe issit??"
i : "DUH!!!(in my mind)
she quickly added: " its not sweet enough issit??"
i: "its ok, maybe a little bitter , maybe cos i eat the biscuit first which is sweeter..'
then she gave me that "oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh!!!" look..
^she kinda made me look at singapore service sector in a different light..a glimpse of light amongst a sea of bleak disappointment... hheheeh
oh.. and before i forget..she was also very pretty..(for those who think i am a pig go ahead.. but a guy would normally react to pretty girls.. i mean majority at least..)well i guess its packaging. cos pple who actually know me .like.. know me would know that i am absolutely in love with ladies in powersuits.. well in this waitress' case not really suit but she was in "powerpants"??? well you get the idea..and it was getting alittle hard to carry on studying.. as i started to doodle on my notes..
who says g-strings or t-backs which gives endless wedgies and diaper rash is sexy??maybe a turn on.. but this is wayyyyyyyy better... woohoo!!!!!

lala

today..after a few dasy of not bloggin i could not hold back any longer and i just have to.... have to... blog on.. hhaha

well.. today was a quite day of studying like i did a few days ago.. and i was in olio having a small cuppa and doing my revision esp in the morning it was all quiet with only a few patron and soft music playing as i sipped my affogatto breathe the air and read on.... after a while i headed to taka for my lunch and headed off to the next spot for my studying.. hehe

in orchard they is hardly a quiet spot.. if you know of one let me know!! well i found one.. but more would be better.. hehe.. i was in tcc..(for the uninitiated its stands for the coffee conneiseur not coffee club..) in cathay cine.. and i was peasantly surpised to be the only patron in the joint.. bliss.. hahaha..had my regular order of a oreo mocha frappe and sat down to read on..not long after ordering .. my frappe came.. and as i would do normally i asked for syrup..(is this out of the ordinary??) well the waitress popped the question when she came with my syrup..

she went: " you pour the syrup into the frappe issit??"

i : "DUH!!!(in my mind)

she quickly added: " its not sweet enough issit??"

i: "its ok, maybe a little bitter , maybe cos i eat the biscuit first which is sweeter..'

then she gave me that "oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh!!!" look..

^she kinda made me look at singapore service sector in a different light..a glimpse of light amongst a sea of bleak disappointment...
hheheeh

oh.. and before i forget..she was also very pretty..(for those who think i am a pig go ahead.. but a guy would normally react to pretty girls.. i mean majority at least..)well i guess its packaging. cos pple who actually know me .like.. know me would know that i am absolutely in love with ladies in powersuits.. well in this waitress' case not really suit but she was in "powerpants"??? well you get the idea..and it was getting alittle hard to carry on studying.. as i started to doodle on my notes..

new one again

my previous post had to go through certain blogging figure before it finally showed itself for the world to see..gosh wat is blogger coming to..arghhh!!!!

imagine your blog works on anothers comp but not your own..this was bad.. well..it seems bloggin with pics is a no no.. cos everytime i ctrl+v something in to my blog it just refuses to publish.. ..

anyways..enuff of the troubles part..

to day was actually study day.. as in study... but i tooka little time to do this and in my background was james blunt and damien rice.... been looping their songs for ages in my mp3 player.. apart from the laze to change it was somehow the topic brought about in their songs and how it was brought across to the audience.

you're beautiful

one portrays the crushing of this girl that one sees and falls.. but knwing the impossibility.. he forgets about it..but his fucking high part just made it sound like he was fantasizing and was on the verge of an orgasm or something..and while his "you're beautiful" part can get pretty irritating it actaully does grow on you... hmmmm

the blower's doughter..

well this song is kinda messed up for me anyways.. the whole feels all foggy. cos all i really got into was the part when he got into the "can't get my mind off you" part.. and it was just roaring around my head.. + his singing accentuates wat it felt..it was surreal...

got ago

james blunt sang about someting that most singers hardly touched on.. and i agree with him... hehe
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its wednesday morning ,... tired??? maybe.. slack.. yes.. zzz
i dragged myself out of my house as i made my way to orchard to meet up
with my friends Kah Beng and Jane something... i think Ow???heheh
well we met up and was walking around to gacau some friend "lu xia kun"???
well then after got together and crapped..walked around a bit.. basically
really slack stuff..at first kb and jane were thinking of buffet so they thot of heading down to cine for buffet at suki sushi i think.. but it was very de-appetizing
the smell that was "purged" out of the restaurant smelt utterlydisgusting.. turned
me off.. essentially it smelt horrible...bleh!!!
so we moved on and decided to move around heeren to check out some cool stuff
found this bunch of lights that reacted to how your hand moves over it.. pretty cool..
well moved around somemore and kb bought a bag for his pod and a choker i think..
then after we headed to billy bombers for a float... as we wait for buffet hour to arrive.
finally the hour has come..hahaha...we got our selves comfortably sited and it was time for
the kill...well i was kinda stupid i guess cos i got my friend looking at me like "wat is wrong with
you!!!!" cos i was taking the red plate sushi which are more expensive.. and in all i took about
three red plates i think...my friends just totally freaked out.. but later it was found that they
forgot to count the red plates so no additional cost was incurred..(my friend was cursing and
swearing... hoping he had taken a red plate too...)
just as we thot we had run out of wat to eat.. cos the sushi was only the few.. and i am not a
particualr fan of raw fish.. esp with all the recent scare about contaminaton..so i headed to
temakis instead. and in all i ate about 5 or 6 temakis while kb took about 8 i think..we were nuts
and it seems the more we ordered the more rice it would contain.. (to fill us up fasteR??)
but at least the nori was crispy instead of damp and soggy.
just as we were about to finish.. i saw this figure sweep past.. in fact i was sitted quite far from
the entrance but i just gt my head turned.. i thot i saw someone familiar...but i got afeeling she
thot i was some weirdo stalking her or something..cos her face seem to show that she was
spooked more than anything...
well then after got somethings cleared up and found out she was really who i thot she was.. some
one whom i got to know online whom i have never met before i real life.. now thats coincidence..
after dessert all of us me kb and jane got really bloated.. i guess the rice was getting to us.. haha
so we paid our bill and got out of there..
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love this board..nice but heard its range sux.. still its cool..
kb and jane
kb and his ebi fry whch always escape fomr its battered crumb covered shell.. haha
the scary just got scarier.. hahahahha
wats an outing without a car.. and without fail here is the 850i fomr bmw.. rare.. and lovely..
till i blog again.

blank.. basically.. mayb a little nice..right at the end..

well being blank..i can't say i have alot to say.. but i'll try to anyways...

a little day dreaming and slacking and ermmm...

lets see .. start from yesterday.. was out with Shelly

met up at N.Y.dc for some eats and to do my mac..and boy

am i thankful.. got my mac loaded up pretty good..

and after was talk and slack then talk and slack.. abit of eating

and drinks then more slacking and chatting.. it like i met her at 2

in the afternoon and we were toking from then.. gosh.. it was like six hours

of chit chat..phew..

picss below,..


for the uninitiated..general lee is coming back..heheh


a shot at the rain trees before the rain..


shelly and me..i am on the right btw.. hhehe


the view of dome outside in.. hehe


candid pic of shelly that turned out abit constipated.. hehe..

well after that she went to meet up with her hubbs.. too bad her could not join us in our chit chat cos of work.. sigh..

till i blog again

blogger is going nuts...

blogger sis goign nuts.. or issit just me.. my blog has prob processing it self.. pictures can't be published.. and as long as i paste sometingn in my blog it does not ocme out.. or looks like.. shit... gosh.. shite man..

i need a saviour.. haha

silver lining??

you know the times when entries feel stupid and you wish you hadn't wrote wat you did.. but some how it happen to be just wat you wanted to do back then..well this is one of those moments....


today was pay day.. i got my pay fomr my job at the exhib. called comex which was an IT exhib.. and i almost lost my voice but so far so good.

after typing so much i decided to just post pics i have taken randomly over few days..

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Creative booth with the blue one there..well thats where i was..


Creative with their X-FI sound card


another set of X-Fi pcs.. i was surrounded..


crowds at samsung,.. there were giving out coca-cola..


the crowd at Creative


jasmine here.. my superior.. very busy... one hand laptop.. one hand hp..sigh..


pioneer's booth.. cheap DVD players

.. the rest of the pics form the exhib will come later...

the pics below are just me feeling nostalgic and being trigger happy with my cam..heheh

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todays (contd)

(btw for those who wish to curse and swear possibly say that i am an asshole and that i should face up to reality.. feel free but reality is life sucks..)

and the more i thot of it.. the more i got upset (how upset right...) and my sis said to me.. to have absolute freedom i would be a very lonely person..

i do not wish to be.. but sometimes i am.. i think...


just in case i die.. this shall be my suicide note.. nad i am very sorry to my family and i am sorry i wasn;t a better human being..

todays

second day of "blogging" on "notepad" not the best of days.. it seems not the best of my luck also...my life is goign topsy turvy.. for one moment i thot of writing my last..well after much thot maybe i did not have the courage to do so.. or maybe i was just wallowing in self pity..today was not good.. put simply...
first was my class.. got there late..shit..then later felt tension.. cos i have been neglecting my work and this class mate of mine has been doing my part.. i felt like a bastard.. i mean if i had a chunk to do.. you could have sent me wat i needed to do.. but she did it for me.. and i felt horrible..+ over the weekend i got my mind wipe slate all clean of my work.. basically it was just not good..any explanation would only make it sound likea cover up and turn me into an even worse asshole that i already am... and wat could be worse was when i was given the chance to go for this voluntering trip to sri lanka and i thot of going .. but my mum did not allow.. and in the end.. i almost had this big tiff with my mum.. i felt like shit.. it was like why can't i and she was like saying you will have loads of opportunities in future.. but every one.. or anyone.. how many out there have really found such an opportunities in your life after working..
then after the squab.. i got really crashed.. so i called my sis.. and see wat was their view.. and it turned out that there is a trade off in all that we do.. which i felt totally sucked..i do not want to spent my holidays doing boring routine stuff.. i want a exciting memorable one.. i wanted that for my life as well but my life seem destined to be the 9 to 5 grow old get married that is IF i ever get married and havea kid or two and die..this concepts sucked.. i wish i could do more... than this platonic money driven piece of shit..
(to be continued..cos blogger has prob with long posts)

yesterdays contd(some fucking prob prevents overly long blogs..)

well at elast i am thankful that the people were all very friendly..esp this ic called noel.. he was bubbly and bouncy and aot of fun... most of the people were also pretty friendly and it was pretty comforting..but things just had to get worse.. my throat was getting worse and i was getting coarse by the day.. thank god for herbal candy man..they are the saviour man or else i would have lost my voice..

and during the show.. i have to say.. people still think sex sells..i see wat those "promo models" are and it seems year by year more and more companies are employing them..issit that men are mindless people who buy with their balls for guides??i mean some looked horrible.. figure wise.. fine.. but some are really kinda overly exposed??and some have really bad makeup done.. basically ... kinda like bapo show.. except for maybe a few..or maybe cos i am a face guy cos i look at girls in their face and not their ass...

then they was the crowds..who are all about free gifts..and thats about it... its like shit man.. can't you guys be human ?? its free but some are really like crap..as in the free gifts.. but youguys are just out to grope some..gosh..

i guess cos i was the speaker and seeing crowds splitting after a free gift session was crap.... but well maybe i would have been the same if i were there..

then there is the closure.. finished wat i set out to do..more or less and i guess i would have done somethings different or otherwise ...

my head is beginnig to feel fuzzy..

shutting down..

yesterdays

sorry but blogger when hay wire on me yesterday.. it seems inevitable but my frequency of blogging has been circumstancially cut down..been doing loads of talking over the weekends and up till now my voice has gone all hoarse.. and basically i can't be worse.. i feel really sick and it seems life got a flip for the worse.. lets see.. i fell all exhausted.. and sorry for the pictureless blogs cos i am not really feeling up to it anyways.. lets see some ups and downs.. for those who think you can bear the bore you may read on.. but the rest.. dun bother if you feel bored already.. overall the shows i did were pretty successful but as i said in my previous post life kinda sucked..cos omse bastards have no consideration for peoples ears..and then after got to know this girl from comex..and she was very pretty... i know wat you guys are goign to say.. well.. i am no chi ko peh.. but its a fact that she's pretty.. she is like a cross of akane soma and lindsay lohan..pretty was kinda an understatement..but well its one of those acquaintances..that brush you past..then after.. was horrors again..i was suffering fomr OMO syndrome.. cos i was manning my booth and i was alone.. apart fomr there i have not much time to go to the restrooms etc.. even filling up my water bottle was horrible.. i could only do it during meal time. which is incredibliy short cos i gotta rush abck to make sure the stalls dun get empty for too long..
(the rest in the next entry)

long itme since.. and more long time before...

it has been such long time since i got in touch with you pple and my blog.. well my job is a little of halves..its both rewarding and entertaining... but sometimes a pain.. at times i feel i am goign to lose my head.. esp today when i got two mega sized soeakers who ah pointed toward my booth.. fyi.. my booht was about the size of the speaker k.. gosh.. i was pissed.. and those pricks are like tellng me.. that people cannot hear,, and i was about o go death man... wtf is in your head.. bewt its not brains siah..well today saw quite a number of pple from poly and even my parents came today.. haha.. it was hilarious.. and so far.. reviews have been good.. hehhehe..(yayaing*.... hhehe)

well this job may be nice but i miseed quite abit of wat i am to do or used to do.. i used to go online till the wees of the night. but now can't afford to.. and well i missed havving conversations with alot of my pals online.. now it seems when i finally got online there are not around.. sigh..

ARGHH....


well i hope to come back with more to tell..
till i blog again..