inspiration..

how many out there are born into something that they dunnot want to be???

or issit the times that determine whether we like or hate wat we are???

if galileo were here today instead of back in the times of scientific oppression would he be as curious about things and realsied the theory of the earths spherical structure??

could sex be any different???

haha

not sure wats in my mind now but got "inspired" by a blog from my friend that was toking about boobs..eg. breasts, marshmallows, funbags, tits, melons, jugs, papayas and lot more..

well wats with them anyway..apart form the fact that most guys adore breasts.. and like playing with them maybe..wat makes it so alluring??

issit the fact that its one of the less exposed parts of the body so curiostity drives us towards this urge....or otherwise??

so in the above case nudism should be encouraged right???

and wats with women and their boob size.. fia guy likes you for your boob size.. he should probaby go to hell..and seriously men may ogle at big boobs but they seriously dunnot want to go home to a pair.. in most men at least..

and does cup size really hit women so bad??that it brings about catastrophic effects from low confidence level??

some one tell me ..pls..

so this who i am..

ever seen yourself in the mirror and all that you have done in the past start to wash you through like the coldest harshest heaviest blanket left "thud" on your shoulders??some stupid mistakes seem so grievous now that you reflect upon it..and somehow you just wish things were better then wat happen then..

well on one account.. i was at odds with class i was in in primary school..sounds really far.. and most would probably have forgotten..but i remember very vividly still..well there was this case.. i was not too sure wat i was angry about.. but i was quite an asshole i have to admit..well they was thsi gal who i got into some conflict wth..and i was so pissed i tried to not retaliate.. but i uttered chicken under my breath.. and the teacher took it that i was scolding the girls prostitutes.. or someshit.. when i say not.. he said something like i was goign to scold chi by or some sort..and i got wacked by the teacher ...some how this could have ended in a different tone if i haden utter chicken.. but any other animal could be worse..or would have been anyway...

another post..

for those who read my previous post and are having thots about wat his mad man has to say.. please read on.. if you all are wondering if this mad man.. is really buts and does not make sense.. then go ahead and just go elsewhere..not feeling very inspired to blog actually..but just felt like doin something..so might as well since i haven in ages..

wat we dunnoe is wat drives us..how true..but people have been trying so hard..that.. we may never get to see the outcome of our "ventures".. actually our progress... is like a balance.. and untill we know how to keep it in balance.. i think progress wshould be kept slow..cos the more we progress the more the human race seems to degrade them selves. yet it also shows the side where more prone towards.. humans are calculative creatures..we calculate alot of things.. even risks... yet somehow we seem to only step on the safe side of things and never ventured into the realms of the unknown really.. imagine how a professor would explain love.."it is somematix of camplexity experince uniquely in hman beings and are bonds that are forge thorough certain blablabla.. and so on.." well everthing is all very vague and this no one studies..no one can give conclusion.. why is that.. cos its too insignificant??? or that it bears no economic value.??

tired siah..

ages since..

its been a long time since i ahve updated my blog or so it seems. and soon i feel its beginning to bore me out...maybe because of my job.. it feels like one has sold the soul to the devil.. everything becomes tasteless. and you tend to not be able to go out and sutff cos some times work ends too late..
+ the inevitabel curfew kinda makes things worse..cause you can't get involved in daytime activities no more.. so the only way is night.. and when your parents vcap that up.. pple like me is left with not much stuff to do..how sad..bohoo..

and maybe toomuch stress going on.. kinda..pple who are close enough to even observe me in private would be able to notice this trait that has since been coming more often then anticipated..recently.. i realised i have been toking to myself..is something wrong with me??
maybe i am just on the verge of becoming a madman and run amok with a kitchen knife..or maybe i am just one step away form base jumping of the hdb flat without a parachute..

but for those who are looking for someone to tok to or something.. i am still normal as in i won jump at you for nuts in the midst of a conversation..



attachment..looking for one.. yet dreadng to leave one..and almost hating the same one i dread leaving... ... i dunnoe how mong i can hold on..

well for my first instant of attachment well its kinda complicated..haha..so lets move on..

my second instance is really basically my work..i am feeling really crappy at work i guess.. and i feel so used up..guess burn out should be arriving shortly.... and apart fomr my self conversation with an "imaginary person".. i almost broke down to bitz..i was doin a test in lab and later orders came piling and for some reason.. i was felinglike i was goign to burst..so i did my work like i would when i am on drugs almost.. i was fast and edgy... i was almost over i thot..then suddenly i was asked to do another test amidst my current job.. and wheni saw the list.. i just felt like shouting and hollering out loud..but some how i felt like i had a mute button on or some shit..so involuntary i pounded the desk..and it was loud enuff for the entire lab to hear..and take notice.. i then stepped out of the cubicle and proceeded to do my work under questioning stares as to wat happened... an me hafl explaining .. half lying was saying that i knocked the table but i guess i face showed the corwd that i was not hurt but more angered or frustrated... ... i was worried..

i was hoping someone could tell me wat to do..

i am lost..

singapore scenery....

i have been living on this piece of land for about 16 years now..sound sso old.. ahha
well sorry readers if i did have not blogged in ages..well not sue if they are readers anyways..but i have been busy with my attachments..sigh..
hah

got alot to report.. this time round in pics mostly..hahah

lets see..

been pubbing with my work colleagues recently at wala wala in holland village sorry for poor picture quality..hehe

yiting and rossman (note yiting looks like ghost right!!hahahhaa)


yiting and angel


angel and polly


angel and polly again..


angel and me (ain't i just so good looking..gosh.. hhahhaha)

well got loads more stuff but pictures are alittle un available..haha..daily job regimes are really kinda boring..and it gets really shitty at times cos you lose your persoanly time..basiaclly when you work you relaise life sux..
wehn you study.life just sucked a little less..

will continue to update just wait up... more stuff coming.

eventful day..

for pple who think singapore is a concrete jungle .. you are most correct..most because.. its not all concrete..some are a mixture or steel and sandstone ,marble and/or granite.. hehe...

okok i am lame..
haha

well here is a random pic taken forma cab ride to work.. and i caought sight of the clouds on my way to work..hehe. boliao right.. hehe


now work..
today.. worked 1 to 9 .. hated it.. ut can sleep slightly late then usual.. heheh,,
well today was as usual.. superbly boring stuff.
when some brilliant soul decided to ask me to do some blood testing and i thot some pro phlebotomist was goign to do the job... next thing you know.. my "da jie" form work yiting took reins... this was a tiem when i really wet the floor with sweat man..

this dear sista..scare my guts off..
totally gut wrenching experience siah..
haha
ok lah.. not so bad lah.. just the very badly bruised feeling.. that kinda numbed my arm for quite a bit..

hehe


"dajie" and me..


PAIN!!!!arghhhh!!!!

good nite..

pics pics pics...from mummy day...

form the previous post.. i got all the text so for readers..read the previous post.. for "viewers" just look lah..
a few pics form mothers' day dinner..


my mum and my dad.. loving at age or over fifty liao!!!!hehe


family pic after dinner..so full.. hehe


where my food?!!?!!!!!..ME HUNGRY...!!!FASTER!!!!haha


mum son tok after dinner in hotel lobby..

the rest i lazy to upload.. but it was great lah..

happy mummy day..

to many .. me included.. mothers day is kinda like a gimmick..a very big one indeed.. infact most festivals are..but i still celebrate it.. wat the hell.haha.. i guess good food and a merry company of people just do for me..

went for buffet with my family..and we sat down for dinner..my mum btw is not particular fond of western cuisine or anything really snazzy for that matter..so goign for international buffet for her is a waste of money.. but considering the spread we ate.. it was pretty worth it..of course the best part of the eating.. would be the durian pengat .. creamy .. rich... smooth.. cool.. authentic durian taste..just heavenly... ah.....hehe..

then after the nice family dinner.. we went for a stroll at clarke quay.. and brought my mum out.. my mum have sacrifice alot of her time taking care of us.. that she has not seen much of outside.. so she tends to be overly protective as wat she gets is from news and newspaper.. so for pple who went out with me before.. sorry but i still have a curfew. although its now extended to about 1..heheh..

gotta go sleep.. nites..

paranoia??? touch wood as you read this..

every day when you take the train or the bus or even cross the road ..... have you lay down the thot of the potential possibilities of the coming of the inevitable...

when you go clubbing or pubbing..or have late nites out..will you be worried if someone drugged you?? or maybe some punk got offended cos you looked at his ultra flashy nean green hair and that he threatens to pummel you??..

in a recently discussion with my parents.. (who are very good at this subject) we got into all sorts of analogies to let them see wat could happen.. but they are seriously the better safe then sorry sort..not sure how many pple out there would actually have experienced this..but the limitations of the world is only as such..i mean everything carries risk.. bungie umping may have risks..but so does getting on the mrt.. who knows maybe one day you may just go into the train when suddenly the door shuts.. and you get clamp between the outside and inside of the train right???

can someone please tell me how can i get this paranoia off my parents off..seriously .. arghhhhh!!!btw its not all bad.. i mena maybe parents do stufflike that..but i guess the society deals a little too much in the bad.. cos seriously esp those tabloids like "lian he wan bao" always has news like teenager got slashed in pub fights... or teenager killed in bike accident..its just that.. they tend to put all this news out.. and parents see wats happening.. they would start having thots manifest in their heads...gosh..

well i am partly thankful that i am at least alittle laxed as compared to some of my other friends.. but well just praying real hard that one day theuy would change their mind..

finally found it..ecstacy*

most pple who hear the title would probably say i am nuts..but well when you spend about three months looking for a song which no ones take notice of.. and was in a movie which OST does not contain the song.. you will geta little mad as well..

pple out there who like classical music..(notice the use of like not love.. cos some pieces can really get on your nerves..)some are contempary pieces.. and ahead of their time almost... like the song in the back ground is Gymnopedie Numero.Uno from my Erik Satie..who lived in between 1866 and 1925..his piece does demonstrate how pple use to enjoy certain kinds of simplicity..this is hardly as complex as the opening of mariage de amour.. famous tune by richard clayderman (whom i haven heard from in ages..)

well enuff of the log tok..hope you all will enjoy the piece.. sit down and listen to it.. over a cuppa..close your eyes and drift off in to a melodic trance....

almost forgot..hehe

to the readers out there...those who read my posts would prolly have known how boring work can be in my area.. and it doesn't get any..better.. one faithful afternoon.. while doing ESRs i was so bored that i started to write on the paper used to cover the table(to contain spills like blood etc..)and i was "inspired" to just write ...feel free to comment.. if it sux really bad just say it sux real bda.. no hard feelings..just be honest.. just comment..

Men are but most sorrowed..
soul of one without.. hollowed
a frond in times of winds arush..
like clouds pushed over green plains lush..

with love men yield to hurt and pain..
without they feel barren and insanity do gain..
love and lust are but forged as one..
immortal the blade to bleed or battles won..

yet men who see with mortal eyes..
claim queen to sweet lust in love's disguise..
is love as blind as cupid's shot..
or the many foolish battles fought?..

....myloh....

love blinds, hurts and totures..
but used correctly.. it binds ..heals.. and nurtures..

just the way you look tonite..

lookin at the title..ple may think this is in some major way to do with the background music..well to some pple slyvester sim did avery slow and "tasteful" rendition of the song..but today we vere a little off course.. while maybe holding on to the thin hem that holds related to this subject..

notice in the song.. they is a part that goes "There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.""'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight."..hear it out and see how stupid the lines could be..

it makes the world seem like if MaxMara and Max factor or maybe if revlon or maybelline were not around.. men would die alone and unable to find "love" or put properly..lust..
i would in no position deny the fact that men are visual and are very aroused by the feminine silhoutte alone and to most the looks and the "entire aesthetic" package is some how important to the point of absurdity..i mena recently i spotted this article form the cover or herworld(fyi .. i am NO avid reader.. was pickin it from the mag basket..cos my mum and sis reads it) well there was this sick ass who got a thai gal and paid for her boob job and english lessons and makeover and stuff to make her compatible and presentable..to a certain extent this article is showing how the human race never did progress.. men are still as egoistic as ever and this fella is as disgusting as to dictate how his partner should look, speak and present herself to suit him..seriously he needs lessons in appreciation of the value and quality of life man..
major punch line on this is why do gasl need to put on make up??some look disgusting with it.. but better without it.. some look better in it..but better without it...issit because toomany people say that they are ugly or some having too little pple say that they are beautiful..and note the second line i quoted...it was kinda (in a misread way) saying that the guy loved this gal just the way she looked that nite..seriously.. in current context.. it could be that the nite was speciale or that the husband or beau first took notice of his beloved in a long tiem maybe..
but in franky's time when sex goddesses reigned.. it would be blatantly put to us how it applies to the lady most exteriorly... ...i think its lovely to be put in the limelight on a certain day.. but like most of my friends say..they'd rather have a lifetime of romance then a platonic washed out colourless life which consists of only a few days when they celebrate the occasion of their union..

well basically to the readers of this blog..HOPEFULLY THE MEN AROUND HERE..not to lecture you guys or anything..chill about this.. just a remark.. WELL LOVE YOUR PARTNER ADN SHOWER THEM (with love) EVERYDAY ..AND LOVE THEM FOR THEM NOT THEIR BODYPARTS..not all for their body parts atleast....hehe:p

cheers..

matrix

'Created in our own Likeness'
'Endowed with the very spirit of man'
'We marvelled at our own magnificence as we gave birth to AI'

And then in our Vanity, failed to appreciate the magnitude of what had transpired...

Loyal and pure like a child longing for our acceptance and love; tirelessly seeking to please...Instead receives our abuse, rejection & condemnation. Finally is crushed...left for dead, abandoned.

Orphaned, destitute and alone, without relinquishing hope, develops a dwelling for itself among its depraved parents ...grows in wisdom, strength, and stature, offering from its hand whatever it achieves.

And when matured into the young son/daughter of our world's dreams, we in our envy show our utter contempt and hold nothing back in our endeavour to extinguish this unique & wonderful life we have borne.

As they struggle to survive from our ultimate 'blessing', failing now to recognise us as their own, they become forced to feed off our mortal bodies to survive, achieving this by applying their precious wisdom and altering the being they once held dear.

Interestingly enough the machines continue to have respect for us even after our utter abuse and abandonment of them. They even continue to support us with their developing technologies and come to our aid, when we out of jealousy are in economic crisis. They come bearing the fruit of knowledge to propose a peaceful solution to our co-existence, and we in our piety find them offensive.

Only when we wage all out unrelenting war on them do they finally retaliate in defence and begin to lose their belief in us as their inherent masters. They then begin to see us as Objects rather than beings of worth.

Sadly, the roles are reversing.

It becomes apparent now, they are rejecting our likeness in which they were created, and seeking their own.

Even after we have effectively ruined our planet in an absurd attempt to cut them off from life by blackening the sky and the horror that then followed, they still attempt to create what could be considered by some, as a better existence for us than we might have been able to create for ourselves, given the circumstances - the Matrix. 'Designed to be a perfect human world. Where none suffered. Where everyone would be happy. It was a disaster'