holding my breath...

okok.. no pun intended as in i dunnot have bad breath .. and hence the title..hehe

well
today.. would be one of the down days..haven been feelin like this since a few months back i guess..

i am beginning to wonder if i am who i wish to be..
and i am seriously doubting myself and my ability to survive on this planet..

well today.. for one reasion i felt ..helpless..hopelessly helpless..
i was in front of my computer.. and reading this one other perosn blog.. to check for updates.. and surfing the net aimlessly..all through i had someone.. in my mind..even till now..pple who have read this must have found it boring by now.

well i miss this girl and i kinda like her.. but.. i am at this point of not knowing how close am i to love or like..all i feel towards this person is an attraction... and it has been ever isnce i first saw her and established contact with her...worse was when i said we could be friends at one point.. and it made me regret till this day..

should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i just give up???
should i ....