something from someone....

just someone lost in the vast sea of colourful people in the world.. trying to get my bearings and walk down the right path in life.

of all the people in the world, who are u?
have u got all u ever dreamt of?
are u getting all that u want? or are u settling for sth less coz u cant be bothered to make the effort to try or coz u are complacent?
whats ur full potential? how do u reach the most of what u can be? will u knw when u r there?
have u found ur place in the world?

i haven't...

msn messenger...

ever noticed how the society seems to urge people to break out of their own shells but with few people able to do so.. the spirit of individualism has arisen from this trend of trying to out do others.. most have chosen to diverge their energy and show wat they could be as one self and hope fully stand out of the crowd.

like msn messenger..many have used it and have you ever stopped to wonder.. the nicks or aliases that are on there are limited only by our imagination..

eg.

to people who read this.. if your nick is here pls dun sue me for copyright or anything..hehe

*expectations are the root to all heartaches
*positive attitudes does wonders
*to the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world
*all i can see when i see you, is you being the perfect imperfect person you are
*guys pls treat your gal like you precious even after you've got her..
*pissed
*relationship revolves around one thing: communication
*what a html day
*a body without a soul, every secong is pain
*a problem worthy of attack , proves it worth by fighting back
*can i have the last laugh?

well the above are some examples..
just how do we i dentify ourselves??
apart form our names and our personality..
our behaviour..
wat exactly hits us and points us out as an individual??

penny for your thots...

quote of the day!!

the first kiss is always in the middle of a sentence... its the only true kiss in a relationship..the rest is just protocal...
------Lance barton------

today was really bad..

i guess almost as bad as any i have had in years... i woke up and was most certainly late for my lesson.. but made it by a tooth.. into the classroom.. not that the teacher would really bother us about anything like not coming on time.. especially when its the first lesson of the day... but.. for those who have pon teng lessons.. ever felt insecure.. like you may misss out on something good during lesson..well theabove was not meant to preach.. but just hope to see more people during lessons.. maybe..although a few missing ones would be kinda hilarious...sometimes cos the teacher actually takes it that they are in class and calls for them umpteen times.. each time only to realise that they aren't here yet...

then chemistry was cancelled.. which lead to an upsetting afternoon.. of slacking.. too much of the good thing is bad..slcking kinda makes one feel ampty.. but it kinda robs you off your purpose for the time being...(those who think i was blabering nonsense .. you are absolutely right) then i was later joined by two of my classmates doin miniscules portions of work..but better then none..

followed by lunch and Math...has anyone ever seen how redundant math is,. in certain areas of our lifes.. not the basic arithmatic parts.. but wat the shit issit about..diferenciation and algebra that most pple have to go through wiht.. its not the teachers or the notes.. its just the subject..man..god...arghhh!!!!

and then its the part of the day when i take my leisurely 2 hour ride home and look out of the bus windows to see pple waitng for the service to pick them up.. and send them home..also the passing streets as i gradually dozed off....

anticipation

I like to start my notes to you as if we're already in the middle of a conversation. I pretend that we're the oldest and dearest friends -- as opposed to what we actually are, people who don't know each other's names and met in a Chat Room where we both claimed we'd never been before.

What will he say today, I wonder. I turn on my computer, I wait impatiently as it boots up. I go on line, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail.

the above is an abstract in you've got mail..(my favourite movie)..sorry but i happen to be a closet a romantic when it comes to movies.. (although i do watch other genres)...as the title of my blgo suggests .. this post is all about this lovely urge that we feel called "anticipation" its when you look forward to something with such anxiety you could hardly sleep well or in some cases catch a real bad flu.. haha

recent events have borught my anxiety level to a peak.. not that it does not happen.. just not so often.. and this time.. i am both anxious and worried.. cos its not about email.. but.. its about my life.. i am at the verge of tearing myself apart cos i have no prior knowledge in the context of the major thing in all romance movies.. love....

how an you be sure.. or rather.. how to do things right..i feel like a octopus disconnected from my own limbs and getting all tangled by themm... and recently i ahve asked if we should meet.. after much persuasion.. the answer was like okokok..i do not mean to doubt maybe its just me and my insecurity.. but.. how do you know.. if this is it... for real or something like that..

hear is another abstract that kinda tells you readers how i am feelin about now...


Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, valuable, but small. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So goodnight, dear void.

mischance...

The day , like a horse of lightning straddle,
yet my tears do sow as wax from a flaming candle.
its like the world's conscience has fallen into abeyance,
and changed moral to blind obedience.
man of ethic would be few,
the ones who followed their heart true.
should the light be found and passed,
will humanity find peace and chaste.

If the flame is to falter,
then history to alter.
If lights would be taken by darkish rumble,
then day would human heart feebly crumble.
take heart to wat you have today,
to not suffer in tomorrow's dismay.
take hate and anger in your stride,
cast away the jealous, spite and pride.

live the day like you glady should,
or live it as best as you worldly could...

-------myloh

another begining

notice how the new year is no longer like before...
new years before always seem to have the effect of
a new beginning..but somehow.. this year the feelin
is some wat lackin...maybe because of the fact that school
starts in december sigh..

well the year started with a high note.. brimming with tears
many have died and left this world while some were pardoned
from the fate of death only to have a worse fate befall upon
them... the total lost of all they hold dear..and the scene of
some where their only possession was a photo of their family..
has come to demonstrate the destitude they have fallen into and
the split second it took rip the people off... although we must say..
it is times like this that the human spirit show through...like the
abandoning of all thats valuable to embrace a picture of ones family
..priceless

my condolences go out to all who have something or someone lost and those who are lost...