ok.. ok.. i get it..

ok.. finally got my foot down on something hope it turns out fine
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and being a considerate blogger i shall change the background music..

cos someone does not know how to appreciate it.. haha..

okok.. just joking...


and another thing.. i am not..for one second a david tao fan..or a jolin fan too.

so if you are to talk to me about them.. please dun blmae me for the blur look..

cos i seriously sotong-ded..

sigh..

turning 21

am i suppose to be afraid.. or am i suppose to be afraid..

a few months ago.. or years ago.. this would be so

i should have yearned so much for this day to come..

but now that it looms closer.. i dread it sorta...



it is suppose to be a phase.. one that is a little bit bigger

than i hoped it'll be..

i dunnoe.. its the one time.. that i sincerely hope for

a simple happy birthday..

well at the same time .. many pple wishing me happy birthday is fun too..

hmm



gosh...

dilemma..

fearsome woman..

quote from pride and prejudice..that an accomplished woman.. in the eyes of mr darcy.. would be truly fearsome..


i have did it again..and this time.. fearfully.. is my second..
not sure how i should put it so i shall be as forth right in so doing as i can..

i admit before i am to let myself crumble and show me as but a shapeless turd upon the lowly floors..that i am infatuous.. as with all and every soul worth being infatuated..

and recently i have met with two woman.. of different backgrounds.. well being different persons it would come as no surprise..with all due respect..they were uniquely attractive..

one is a chatty.. amiable.. simple.. bubbly..trendy..

the other intelligent..well read...well spoken..and also very amiable too..

but both of whom i have a lacking of courage..to put my foot down and spur myself in pursuit..

in both cases.. i was a coward.. a soldier who put circumstances before me and lay a thick hedge form which behind i hid in shame..

i so wish i have the courage to be romantic and take the leap which so many hath taken...

maybe in due time..

out again..

sorry its been soooo long sinced i've blogged.. but work and all else in between has got me pretty slammed..well.. it ain all bad..

two outings not reported yet.. cos after the outings,, i am probably too tired to do anything.. for one. and for the ether well i think i just plain got lazy..

well hung out with val and went to the beach .. andgot roasted further..which is not bad.. if i might add.. i actually look not bad i think..but too bad it'll all go away cos i dun have the opportunity to get tanned all that often..

wellhung out and the beack and went to vivo later for dinner and a movie..death note 2 to be precise.. pretty cool flick ..full of interesting weirdoes.. haha..

then until recently al and i went to the zoo.. and i have to say.. sinapore is tourist friendly man.. such amentities are so not affordable.. wateva the gov says.. but it relaly is a bit steep to step in to the zoo. and those motorised buggies for rent are a hellishly scary 25 a piece for a day.. i can only imagine their profit margin sort of....gosh... well apart fomr which it has a fantastic view of a hugely fantastic reservoir.. cute animals.. mostly not moving or asleep..ducks that respond to my quacking.. a whole tank of cockroaches.. a few pigs.. can't say more cos they smell..haha.. and i was a ehart warming experience relaly to be able to touch and see all these.. knowing and seeing wat the current generation are actually getting..some think fish come from nature all breaded and deboned.. so thinking of gens later.. it could be pretty harsh..

it was a pretty good day if i might add.. fair breeze with the sun beaming slightly.. not like that day at the beach. and i was relaxing thoough at the end endlessly exhauting as well..

dragged myself back.. and snoozed.. thank god the next day it my off day as well.. hahah..

til i blog again.. maybe pics taken in the zoo next time...