deep one

I AM OCEAN

i dunnoe how to tell this to you.but i guess its a matter of luck of chance and of my trust in you..

recent events have brought me to thinking our friendship may churn into something no far from tragedy..

it seems plain and simple is better for you..almost..

or perhaps some really spiteful or maybe playful fella is "playing fool" through your tag.

i am not sure how to clarify this..but i can assure you.. i didi not in anyway said anything of that sort

and criticise anyone on your blog..


my faith now hangs in a very thin thread that you would actually see wat i meant and pay this parchment a visit

to clear your doubts and calm my fears..


if you seen this do hit me back..

with a grateful heart,
myloh.

sigh

posting did not work..
chinese looks like windings..

sigh. wat the prob with blogger..
aiyah.. think i switching soon lah..
hahah

posting

对着你 ....心中感触深。

写着一则... 你永远也没可能注视的一篇感文。

心里只是急切的想把胸口上的包袱抛开。

但愿有朝一日能亲口与您诉说。


我曾经看过我数次的爱情小说，但是现实并非梦幻。

我心中所想，都再无时填补我新里的欲望和想像。

在和你在一起的几天，更在我脑海里反复地浮现着。

我们之间的友情让我快乐不已， 但在近来的日子里发生了一些事，

而我对你之间的友情更产生了怀嶷，我使在万分不该。

对不起。

i am in halves

i am in halves... i am sooo in halves..


one moment i am sitting on a chair staring at my screen..

the next i am not sure..

and the next i feel i need

to see someone or talk

to her

face .. to face...


but i dun doubt her..then later i was thinking wat if..

i feel like a really bad friend or

a person to have even begin doubting her..







good nite.

sigh

i had a bad start today i guess..

someone i was not suppose to bother with bothered me alot today..

to the extend.. i find that.. i seem to have my batteries plugged out..

i feel deflated... or rather blank...



sometimes i think i am disposable..

blanc aiment un morceau de papier....






:``` (

shit...

i am in big doodoo this time round..

and i think i may just track down the perosn managing blogger and kill him...cos i seem to be the only entity on this whole blogging universe that is not able to post my pics.. someone help...


anyways.. life has not been better.. if fact i think it just got a little worse..timetable is no longer as slack which meant i am dead.. and i will not be able to hang out that often..sigh...


i wish i hadd an alternate outlet.. one that i am anonymous.. yet some how i wish my words can reach some people without conciously affecting them...


i think i am losing myself..


too bad things like these were never meant to go my ways anyways...

sigh..


sounds so sad right... well it was suppose to .. but i think i would have bored out most of the people already..


loads of things happpening around me.. but i feel like nothing is happening to me...


parents as naggy as ever...

school still sucks...

friend found a new job....

friend bought new lingerie....

friend gogin overseas...

friend got crushed on....

friend in love with some one and is not secure...

friend who gets horny in the rain...

friend (a guy) who likes someone but cannot be with him....

friend who likes a girl but the girl likes someone else...

friend who is paranoid and over self concious..

friend who wantss to fail napfa...

friend who is longing for school to start...

i am sitting here...... waiting.. blogging.. thinking....thinking..

good bye

time is 11 05 and i am in the departure hall
waiting for the flight and waiting to step into the plane to be jetted off to some foreign land...


i am leaving on a jet plane..

but especially at this moment...


i seem to miss someone more than ever...



till i blog again

a super super super long long long day... *panting...hehe

lets start form the beginning.. as usual i wake up at about 8.. seems to be programmed in my head... like i will normally wake at 8 am( not like straight up and head to wash.. but more like regain conciousness adn continuee to wallow in bed sort..
hhehhe..

today there was not much time to lose.. when to the kitchen to washup by the basin while heating up the pan..scarmbled eggs , cheese sausages, chicken cocktails hashbrown and strips of crispy bacon..just lovely..
yummy.. but after i finish with mine.. time to make another portion for my friend upstairs.. but it waws kinda hell.. cos gotta do breakfast for 3 persons.. (kinda feels like a a house wife kind.. jialat... ahaha)... well it was at first breakfast for yanting (the same one i went to fish and co with)who is my neighbour but to have breakfast made only for her kinda felt wrong..cos he bro and mum was at home as welll hence the three portions.. but it was easier then i expected.. just plain fry ups and scramble eggs.. so it was not as hard..then there after was washup ..


after clearing everything time to fly..met up with yanz and her bro to have his phone fixed.. and my llunch fixed cos i was suppose to meet up with fiona later..heheh.. so off we headed to orcahrd where along the way we teased and had quite a bit of fun and i found another poking toy... hehehcos yanting is always poked at by her bro so i joined the club.. hahhbasically it was fun.. but poor yanting had quite day cos i and her bro are in shoes whilst she was in slippers. so heels on toes.. ouch!!! not nice...but thank god she ain't that wweak also lah..very teasble i guess.heheh..

then we had a small bite at big O followed by yanting meeting her colleagues for lunch whilst i headed off to meet fiona..who was also looking for "cool" wear.. and so we cruise about twon looking for coats and jackets of different sorts.. and looking at a petite built girl gettingvain infront of full body length mirrors... at least she did not twirl.. hahah.. so we went around town and later at taka sat by the fountain for light snack where someone tried asparagus and foundit nice.. hahah.then we looked around for blender..(for those who want to know wats with the blender.. see fiona's blog in my links)

at frst was intending to meet to go sim lim to look at laptops but in the end we ended up window shopping.. hahah... in the end went all the way to heeren and later to centrepoint where we parted and she went to fancl to get he make up and i made my way to OG to meet up with yanz and her bro... there after we got home and here i am... ... blogging..


till i blog again..

gosh..not again

blogger is down again.. lost my post again.. arghhhh!!!

holiday outings..

life could get more flat... well not all boring.. in fact not boring at all...


but some how going out is kinda expensive.. haha..

i guess being happy is all that matters..

was out with yanting again.. and i wanted to post some pics of our

outing,, but i would not want to risk having my ass busted.. haah..

(trust me, she is super violent..hahahhaha)


we were dining at fish and co.. and then i realised it was kinda mistake... hahha

yanting is crazy about salmon.. esp raw ones... arghh.... hhehhe..

well for those who know me.. would knoe that i am not exactly crazy about

salmon... but i suppose smoke salmon caesar salad should not be all that bad..

heheh.., well just had to make sure i dodge all the salmon..heheh...

and it seems my apppetite shrunk with yanting around.. cos we shared a salad and a 1 person

seafood platter..with that we were filled... hahah.. strange.. maybe the sight of her .. hahaha

lose my appetite..hahaha...


then there after

we went for drink at altivo

too bad can't post the pictures sigh... if not the results would be catstrophic...


till i blog again..

a beautiful love story

i witnessed confusion, insecurity,
worry, and later relief,
and maybe even laughter
and smiles... all in just two days..


it was a fantastic turn of coincidence
kinda like a tragic comedy..

imagine a bf who forgot to bring his phone
home and resulting in him not being able to
call his gf...

his gf in turn thot that he was turning
a cold shoulder on her so she too did not call
him back..thinking that he would call back if
he was concerned if she did not call him back

then after about day of pouting.. the boyfriend
called back and mentioned he left his phone at work
then the girlfriend being so understanding felt
so sorry for not ahving call him and he felt a little
bad for not calling him as well..

to be continued

listen

a line that caught my breath

"As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday"

before i go to sleep

anybody out there who eats toast at 1 am in the morning??

well recently i did..and it was nice..

wat a day...

its a thursday balh la blah.. all the regular greetings you can think of..

and its been great...


wat can i say.. after one whole day of suaning.. i am kinda exhausted..and it feels kinda weird yet famiiar to be back on this page typing out my everydays'

holidays now.. and everyday is BOring..its really routine.. cos every one is busy.. while i seriously just too lazy to shift my bum..

so today was the day of the big bum shift..meeting yup with my xiaomei for an outing..well she is actually my age but born in september.. like half a year ater me..so brought her out for a belated celebration sort of.. and first stop was food time..cos we met up for lunch and there we were at tampines and she had a craving for jap food.. so there we were from approx 1 to 2 + munching away..and for me it was kinda disastrous.. cos for me.. i kinda dislike salmon..but my xiaomei loves salmon.. and so i tried..and it was ok.. but later.. it felt kinda of.. not sure how to describe... but will keep yuou guys in formed if something weird happens tomorrow..

next tried the tuna and it was gross.. i looked great all dark and frankly as a fan of tuna i was ok.. but appearances can be deceiving.. gosh.. the thing was all kinda soft..a pretty big contrast as copared to the tuna i have eaten before..but anyhows.. we went on.. and we tasted bitter tofu..dried compressed but palatable jelly fish....but that was about the blunders we caought up with.. the rest was pretty good..

we had this sushi with flying fish eggs on it.. and it was fabulous..the eggs we popping along in our mouths and followed by a slightly creamy fragrant sensation.. hahahh.. oh one thing though i had mixed feelings for was the handroll i had. i said spicy.. but i never knew it was going to be sooo hot.. i all most could not swallow and after which there was a constant burning sensation.. arghh..

but it was funn and it was cold..BRR..nad we had "fabulous service" ..

then after we bought tix for "forty yr old virgin" and there after we left for home..tilli blog again..

brrrr

to a certain extent i have no idea if this will even turn out right...

well holidays has just started.. it is slack time but it seems like we are just not in the mood to stay put are we?? during the exams or school term we would wish for jsut ten minutes more sleep.. but during hols.. everyone seem to get all springy with all the legs in the world like we could walk all day and night without fail...haha

well was cahtting up a friend of mine and one idea came to my mind.. which was to spend a day at the beach with book in ones lap and read to the breeze and let it caress your soul as you sit and cast your mind elsewhere within the depths of the book..

listening to: kelly watches the stars - air
(got kinda addicted to them since friend of mine introdiced them to me..esp playground love which i did not know was form them in the first place..)

till i blog again